Gloomy day :s

 #curhatanadik
why do i care so much for people who don't even give the same amount of care?
I always feel worried every time my good friends feels upset/disappointed/sad/mad etc. I'll do WHAT EVER to protect my friends

it feels like im a person in the background unless i'm needed. I always smile and help my friends when they need me make them laugh even if im in my worst mood ever . it literally happend.
I never show the side of me that is totally weak sensitive high temper big thinker


I care for my friends,I listen to their stories,I helped them when they need me, make them laugh when theyre bored . But i feel like no body understands the REAL me ,  I swear if my school asks to pick a partner , everyone have a partner except me (it really did happend)

Seeing all my friends got their own each individual group of friends like they always meet up before & after school , while myself walks alone except if suddenly i joined a group of people.
Before sleeping every night , thinking about them

The fact that my friends only talks to me when they're = bored,need something from me, upset so they need to tell story...not because we're friends and they want to talk to me because they love me

I mean, I don't know if i'm stupid but my friend asked if i could come with her to wait for her for several hours for her english lesson after school so I did.. I'll wait till the middle of the night just to say happy birthday , I'll chat with my friend in really early morning (like 2am-4am and so) because she can't sleep ,I'll do it , i'll cry cuz of my friend lost somone important from their life

But from all of that, i never feel like one of them sits down besides me asks me about my day ,sacrifice the same amount for me

Haha screw that..i'll tell my own stories to my dairy, it listens to me

yang gak tertarik sama gue gak usah baca AHAHA

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyy nama gue anggi ato gipe ato angie ato terserah lo manggil gue kutu kuda juga boleh kook . ini blog kedua gue isinya curcol gitu loh kalo yang pertama gue ngomongnya bahasa inggris.biasalah bule gitu deh gue gimanayaa ;;) HAHA

7 april 1997 lahirnya di jakarta . cuman 3% kemungkinan orang yang gue kenal baca ini. dan pasti dia stalker ato ngefans gitu sama GUEEEHHH ato gue kasih tau linknya . gue orangnya tuh malu gitu deh kalo sama orang gak dikenal .ato mau ngerepotin tuh paling gak bisa HAHA. sok malu ya.padahal gak punya malu juga..
Gak bisa ngeliat temen apalagi temen deket sedih . nggak suka banget sama orang tukang bohong,penghianat atau yang main rahasia2an ..kecuali emang privacy geto day..terusterus gue kadang2 gampang tersinggung

gue "awkward-type" jadi kalo lo gak deket banget sama gue dan kita jalan berdua bakal bener2 awkward diem2an malu2 gaje gituu kecuali kalo udah nemu bahan topik tapi sekarang sih kayaknya nggak deh tapi gatau juga-_-terus gue gaksuka diomongin fisik..gasuka orang yang becandanya main fisik kasar getchooo

kalo lo bikin gue marah..gue nggak dendaman,kalau kesel dilupain aja, daripada ada masalah , kecuali yang gak bisa dilupain . daan gue nggak bisa ngontrol emosi jadi sori kalo misalkan tibatiba gitu gue ngata2in lo abisnya gedek HA

Gue bukan girlygirly type yang cewek..gue lebih ke cowo..gue suka online games yang cowok suka..dulu temen2 gue cowo semua.tapi gara2 dimarahin nyokap temen gue sekarang cewek..HA.HA..

sisi negatipnya tuh gue keras kepala terus gampang tersinggung ,kalo becanda kadang2 ngeselin , kalo ngomong kadang2 dalem
gue sbenrnya gak tau tujuan nge post ini abisnya aku gak punya tempat curcolan qq HAHAHA tp serius ini siapa tau biar kenalan gitu sama gue ;;)
HA HA HA ;) bye